Who am I? 13.12.87……………….03.03.09

To be honest I don’t know………that is because I have changed through the 30 years of my life…..at the very first as long as I remember I was a child…..with funny dreams………and when I got older and went to school I changed and the same did my thoughts…………and as I entered high school I was a big man……….with great ambition. In University, I was not the same as before………I found myself to be a scholar with interesting objectives………..When I was engaged……..my romantic life started……with lovely ideas…………by marriage and after having the first child I found myself in a new page of life………... and here I am in another face and shape………….
You know how did found all these……….I found that in my diary…….I have recorded my thoughts and ideas in my diaries………many notebooks……..many scratch papers…….As I am going through the history of my life by reading my diaries I see how much have I changed………..but there is one objective which is mushtrak in all pages of my life…………and that is to be a good and real Muslim………..to help the Muslim community to find its lost place in the world and to be a great person…………….Yes Islam is in every cells of my body…….and that is what give me joy and happiness. How much I have reached to these goals? I don’t know……..I am acting like a good Muslim………..But Allah Almighty knows how real actor am I………But regarding the Muslim community………….I have done almost nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes it makes me to think that this is the main objective I am given by Allah Almighty, and so is every Muslim in this world………and I am going back to him…….what I can I say him about it????????????????I don’t have any answer, no good reason……maybe I am lost in my personal life too much………..I am thinking about my own and my family……..but what about the community around me? This is what I have to re-think………and maybe CHANGE ONCE AGAIN.